Closing the Curtain

The last few days have been quite up and down. We had a lovely Christmas Day and the kids had a lovely time. But it's all over in a flash.

On boxing day we were due to go to my Sisters, we were all going, my mum and dad, my in-laws, my wife and kids. But mum picked up the bug that my brother in-law, my wife and my daughter had got. I don't know if I mentioned before, but my Mum has terminal cancer. She was diagnosed with a brain tumour in November 2006. It was rather advanced and it's a miracle that she is still with us.

But this sickness and diarrohoea (probably spelt wrong I know) bug really knocked her about. Her vision is not very good and her mobility is very poor now. My dad is her carer and does his best, but he has prostate cancer and is getting weak too. So you can imagine, trips to the toilet every half an hour were just too much. So mum was admitted to the hospital on Boxing Day.

Typically, it being the festive season, everything is chaotic. But mum was looking better after a few days. But yesterday she was being sick again. She's also very confused. Her memory has been getting worse over the last couple of months, but as dad as always been with her, it's been easy to put her back on track. But as the hospital won't allow dad to stay, I can only imagine how confused and panicked mum must be at night with no one to re-assure her.

This morning the hospital called dad to come in and help 'calm' her down, which I'm grateful, but I doubt only just now as she been worried. And it would be nice to hear from a doctor. We haven't heard anything about possible treatement or trying to make her feel comfortable. She isn't drinking or eating, you'd think they would at least be giving her fluids, but it just feels like she's been left there.

I have a few moments today, so I was googling as much as I could and reading the Cancer Research UK site, it sort of dawned on me...that, mum is dying. She was dying from the first diagnosis in 2006, and even though she's battled through so much that maybe her body is starting to give up. I'm constantly making excuses as to why she's feeling sick, or why she can't see or walk well. The latest one is that she could have Diabetes Insipidus, which a lot of these new symptoms, increased thrist, always going to toilet and confusion fit, but actually, maybe the doctors just don't want to tell us, but they think her body is shutting down.

If that is the case, then they should tell us and get her out of there. We can make her comfortable at home or the hospice, but just tell us, so we're not waiting for a treatment that may never come.

So that's the last few days. I'll be off to visit in a bit and see if there is anymore news.

I started this blog for some fun, to note all the ativities I get up to. I'm sorry that this is a bit of a sad one.

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